Lost !
4 years i ignored this page considering all this was junk. Now i'm so lost in words reading , i's say i have to post something for the future
I was skeptical on whether to create a new blog altogether or just add a post.
To be honest i have no clue on what to say , what to post . "Completely lost" would be a more appropriate term for me to use over here.
Its funny cause i used to blog when i was litereally bored to a level where no man has gone before . Am i that bored right now? . absolutely not . Was just browsing the internet to catch up on whats the latest crap , filtering mails and now i come across this.
I'm numb with memories of the past . Did i know back then what and where i was heading into ? . Again "absolutely not" .
Reading what you've actually typed way back is so weird . Has the change over the past 4 years actually helped me? . Not too sure about that . One thing i know is that , i still suck at completing a sentence correctly over a mail or an sms (typo's) . Fortunaltely for office i can use spell checker .
Nostalgia is such a feeling . Its a great feeling that makes you sad . Ironic eh?
Well now to speak about changes .
Music obsession still remains the same . Favourite band still remains the same. but flavour has changed drastically . i songs i've listed previously are songs i havnt listened over years .
definately i'll be downloading them again and they will be among my top play counts for a good amount of time .
Friends have changed . I've realised i have a very large group of friends . Am i close to them ?. an hour ago i thought i was . But to actually think of it , i'm not too sure . i can list a minimum of 10 sets of people who i was in constant touch with and thought i'll be in touch with on a daily or rather weekly basis . But the actual truth is , its really hard to maintain it with the constant changes in life . Do i regret it? i'd say no . But yes i'd definately be catching up with them for sure (fingers crossed).
Relationships , HAHA is all i have to say .
Am i happy?.
>I have no clue . but life moves so fast i have to say . Loads of unpredictable changes both good and bad . Obviously i'm handling it in the best way possible ( i hope), but there have been major slip ups.
Where i wanted to be and where i am ?.
>Financially i'm almost there .
>I dint reach where i am right now the way i presumed . I've got loads of stuff yet to be completed but i cant go by concept of just dumping what i have and aim for the stars.
>Will i reach the top? . Yes but it will take time and patience (which is being tested this very moment).
Would my past be happy where i am right now ?
>I'm pretty sure that would be a straight forward "NO"
>But i would never want to go back and change anything cause i'd rather let it be .
Have my priorities changed?
>Oh yeah . drastically .
What do i miss??
>All of my school friends. I've have lost contact with them all . i will definaltely call them up now after all this thought .
>The energy i had for life and my approach towards something new .
What did i see that was not coming my way ?
>My life in bangalore :) . i'm Loving it but i'd move back anyday of various reasons .
>My interests and hobbies are literally nil. Yes i've reached a stage where music should not be considered an interest or a hobby , Its more of a way of life . But loads of plans yet to be adopted to make sure it stays that way.
>Pressure is something that is on my shoulders . Its no more a text book way of life . Everydays action has to be scheduled , checked and performed with perfection .
>Becoming a couch potato . My biggest setback as of now . Missing out on so much just to stay at home and get some time to myself . and to be true i'm showing absolutely no efforts to come out of it :)
My addiction to the online world has not changed one bit though :)
Loads of thoughts yet to be posted . But as stated i'm no more bored :) .
Hopefully i'll would not ignore this blog like i did . But yeah life is all about unpredictability and change aint it ?.
I was skeptical on whether to create a new blog altogether or just add a post.
To be honest i have no clue on what to say , what to post . "Completely lost" would be a more appropriate term for me to use over here.
Its funny cause i used to blog when i was litereally bored to a level where no man has gone before . Am i that bored right now? . absolutely not . Was just browsing the internet to catch up on whats the latest crap , filtering mails and now i come across this.
I'm numb with memories of the past . Did i know back then what and where i was heading into ? . Again "absolutely not" .
Reading what you've actually typed way back is so weird . Has the change over the past 4 years actually helped me? . Not too sure about that . One thing i know is that , i still suck at completing a sentence correctly over a mail or an sms (typo's) . Fortunaltely for office i can use spell checker .
Nostalgia is such a feeling . Its a great feeling that makes you sad . Ironic eh?
Well now to speak about changes .
Music obsession still remains the same . Favourite band still remains the same. but flavour has changed drastically . i songs i've listed previously are songs i havnt listened over years .
definately i'll be downloading them again and they will be among my top play counts for a good amount of time .
Friends have changed . I've realised i have a very large group of friends . Am i close to them ?. an hour ago i thought i was . But to actually think of it , i'm not too sure . i can list a minimum of 10 sets of people who i was in constant touch with and thought i'll be in touch with on a daily or rather weekly basis . But the actual truth is , its really hard to maintain it with the constant changes in life . Do i regret it? i'd say no . But yes i'd definately be catching up with them for sure (fingers crossed).
Relationships , HAHA is all i have to say .
Am i happy?.
>I have no clue . but life moves so fast i have to say . Loads of unpredictable changes both good and bad . Obviously i'm handling it in the best way possible ( i hope), but there have been major slip ups.
Where i wanted to be and where i am ?.
>Financially i'm almost there .
>I dint reach where i am right now the way i presumed . I've got loads of stuff yet to be completed but i cant go by concept of just dumping what i have and aim for the stars.
>Will i reach the top? . Yes but it will take time and patience (which is being tested this very moment).
Would my past be happy where i am right now ?
>I'm pretty sure that would be a straight forward "NO"
>But i would never want to go back and change anything cause i'd rather let it be .
Have my priorities changed?
>Oh yeah . drastically .
What do i miss??
>All of my school friends. I've have lost contact with them all . i will definaltely call them up now after all this thought .
>The energy i had for life and my approach towards something new .
What did i see that was not coming my way ?
>My life in bangalore :) . i'm Loving it but i'd move back anyday of various reasons .
>My interests and hobbies are literally nil. Yes i've reached a stage where music should not be considered an interest or a hobby , Its more of a way of life . But loads of plans yet to be adopted to make sure it stays that way.
>Pressure is something that is on my shoulders . Its no more a text book way of life . Everydays action has to be scheduled , checked and performed with perfection .
>Becoming a couch potato . My biggest setback as of now . Missing out on so much just to stay at home and get some time to myself . and to be true i'm showing absolutely no efforts to come out of it :)
My addiction to the online world has not changed one bit though :)
Loads of thoughts yet to be posted . But as stated i'm no more bored :) .
Hopefully i'll would not ignore this blog like i did . But yeah life is all about unpredictability and change aint it ?.
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